This week has been really difficult, I’ve chastised myself for my behaviour and had to accept that sometimes life just doesn’t go the way you want- us humans are odd beings, and human behaviour is never as predicted.
Last Thursday, on the way back from work, came the email. My tier at work have all been invited to a meeting, where we’ll find out what’s going on, and effectively all be under consultation as a new ‘arrangement’ is proposed.
It’s been on the cards forever, we’ve known for at least two years that it needs to happen, we knew early in the year that it would happen in this half of the year, and we’ve known since the beginning of the summer it would happen in the Autumn.
And yet now, now there’s a date in the diary everyone’s responded. Some have gone into overdrive, overly keen to achieve all of their targets, some are more emotional and pushing back on things, and generally there’s just a lot of unease.
In contrast, I’m just starting a new role, it’s an interim one, so it doesn’t give any security, my existing role will still fall under the consultation. And whilst there’s optimism about the new role and a new challenge, it’s not clean, it only gives certainty for a few months.
And whilst trying to handover my existing job, and get to grips with the new one, comes the consideration of looking at career options in case the news isn’t great. And I just don’t feel I can give it the focus, and to be honest, I think if I were to leave I’d like to just take the time to take a step back, to the question which has hounded me since I was five: “What do you want to be when you grow up?”. I enjoy my job, there’s no question of that, but when I think about the various careers I envisaged, this definitely wasn’t it, and to coin a favourite phrase “every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end”, and maybe it will be the case for me.
But for now, it is a bit dysfunctional, as enthusiasm gets sucked out of the air by a muttering, as plans are treated with care, and promises with more caveats than usual.
And the countdown goes on.
4 Comments
Angela / Only Crumbs Remain
September 18, 2015 at 08:32How awful Debbie, I hope everything works out well for you. And what a great way to look at it with your proverb of “every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end”, or as we say, “as one door closes, another one opens”.
Angela x
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The Reading Residence
September 18, 2015 at 14:18Sounds like a really difficult time for you, horrible to be left in limbo. So much unknown and hanging over you, I do hope you get some answers soon so that you can move on x Thanks for sharing with #WotW
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Debbie
September 19, 2015 at 11:36Hi Debbie, being in limbo is not nice and any shakeup in the workplace is unsettling. Hopefully things will turn out for the best for you, even if it means a career change. Goodluck!
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Helena
September 19, 2015 at 17:56I’ve heard this situation before. Here’s hoping that you find an answer to that question. I sure would love to know what the answer is for me. #WotW
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