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Last weekend it was Blogtacular, and it was fantastic, everything I had hoped it would be. I got home, tired, with loads of home stuff to catch up on, not least because of so much time in London the week before, and before I knew it I was packing my bags again for another three days away.

I picked up an email on Monday night, which made me stop. We are in the midst of a restructure at work, which has been underway for at least 18 months now. The email confirmed that by Christmas I’ll know whether I’ll have a job, for the restructure has now reached my tier. 

It’s caused me to pause, for heavily implied in this is how well we welcome change.

And for the first time I found cynicism reaching me. I have always thought myself as someone who welcomes change. And yet this time…

And then I realised, I am tired. I am tired of the cyclical process of restructures.

I love my job. Of course I hate the bureaucracy, the inefficiency, the politics. But I love what we are aiming to achieve.

And I kicked myself that this caused me to reflect. As we get our home ready to go on the market, for no particular reason than we’d like a change, that I am questioning whether I’ve become the person who no longer welcomes change.  

This reflection made me realise, I am just tired of change for change’s sake. Ill informed change. Change determined by the person with the loudest voice. Whether I have a job ‘come the revolution’ is to be decided, and I’ve realised I am not in a place to affect this, I do what I do, I think I make a difference, but I am not in possession of the big picture, nor thereafter whether there is a place there for me.

I got home last night, got into my pyjamas, and fell asleep watching the 6 o’clock news.

I’ve had three great days in London. But I’ve missed home.

I think I’ve got the inkling of a cold… so this week. Yep. It’s an easy one:

Word of the week

The Reading Residence
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    The Reading Residence
    June 19, 2015 at 14:01

    It sounds very tiring, no wonder you’re exhausted. I like change, but I’m with you on getting frustrated by change for change’s sake. Sounds like after pausing, you’ve got the right outlook on it now, and I do hope it’ll be good news for you when it comes, of course. Thanks for sharing with #WotW x
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      Debbie
      June 27, 2015 at 18:14

      It can be so difficult to get a good balance with all the plates we are spinning. But yes,hopefully things will work themselves through to a good ending- whatever that may be. x

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    Karen
    June 20, 2015 at 09:41

    Sometimes something happens and makes us stop in our tracks. I hope everything works out for you 🙂

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      Debbie
      June 27, 2015 at 18:13

      Thank you x Things have a habit of working themselves out and I do hope the same will be true this time.

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    Noelle
    June 23, 2015 at 05:01

    I know I definitely don’t like change just for changes sake! I definitely do welcome change though, it brings new experiences and adventure.
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      Debbie
      June 27, 2015 at 18:11

      It’s such a delicate balance isn’t it? Hopefully purpose will help understand things better. x

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